Why Are You On My Mind

I’m back with a pen in my hand
Wondering when the last time
When we spoke with no hesitation
I don’t wanna sing this music on my mind
Cause I’m looking at pictures of you
And memories I wanted
Making me hate you

Should thank you for waking me
From world made of dreams
Twisted narratives
Your misleading narratives
I see your face and scream

Internally I bleed eternal
I am turning from you
But like the devil you tempt me
I’m picking up a call from you
Been long time since we conversed
Must be cursed
Steering my own heart erratic
Perceptions, preparations for a hearse

Wishing you would nurse me back
From full grown man turned crippled child
I’m hating you and your beauty makes me scream too

Staring at this one picture
Reading your love lorn face
Knowing I lost this race
Against all odds
You found reasons to pull on the brakes
Spit at our destiny
Temperatures rising
And I’m filled with hate

Held you and embraced you
In my heart I’d never shared
Intimate thoughts, expressions, I didn’t care

Opened the door
You, said it was the only way
Didn’t run away
You never came
Never said the words
But your expressions lied to me

Just a pawn in your world
A game piece for your ego
I know this but still won’t let go
It would be better if you would fuck around
Murder me beyond physical taunting
I could deal with skeletons haunting
Call you a few words

Caught you with my heart
But you’re too selfish not to lie
But you’re words don’t know how not to lie
I’m trying not to, but
I feel the anger

Staring at this one picture
Reading your love lorn face
Knowing I lost this race
Against all odds
You found reasons to pull on the brakes
Spit at our destiny
Temperatures rising
And I’m filled with hate

The only woman I’ve wanted to know
And I’ve become your bitch

Copyright © 2012 Willie T. Huggins Jr. a.k.a. EnDepth

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